WHAT?!?!?!

I have taken a pregnancy test,

not once, not twice but thrice.

One last Wednesday, one on Sunday and

one last night. Each one was positive.

I am still in shock.

This WAS planned, very planned, we just didn't think that the first time we tried

it would work!

It took 2 years to concieve Charlee and 1 year to concieve

Tommy.

When Tommy was born, Lynn was done. He was happy with a family of four.

We have a boy and girl, he was done.

I, on the other hand, was on the fence. I have had this nagging feeling

that there was one more waiting to be apart of our family.

Then I just knew that I wanted to try for one more.

One might ask, "Why now, why not wait?"

Well, as our track record shows, I do not get pregnant very easily and we assumed

that it might take a while.

I also knew, though, that there was a possibility that

I could get pregnant right away, but that would be ok.

When I found out I was preggo with Tommy, I had to haul out all the baby stuff, buy diapers, get prepared for having a baby all over again.

This way, I am already ready. (Or so I think. I don't think I will ever be fully ready.)

This way I don't even have to put away the bottles.

I will just be in baby world a bit longer.

According to a pregnancy calculator online, my due date is March 2nd.

I am only about 5 or 6 weeks along.

I go on July 9th for my first doctors appointment.

I am nervous.

I am thrilled.

I am afraid of miscarriage.

I am excited.

I am afraid that something will be wrong with the baby.

I am still in disbelief.

I am scared.

We will need a bigger car.

Boy or Girl?

(I can't wait to find out.)

We will have double the doctor bills.

(Tommys birth won't even be paid off yet.)

I am happy.

I will be really tired.

(I already am.)

I am worried about money.

Can we afford another one?

(Not really.)

Can I handlle 3 kids?

Will I have hypertension and diabetes again?

(Most likley.)

I am emotional.

I just can't wait to get this little on here!!!

I have a lot on my mind and I know that Lynn is very worried

because he has to work his buns off to provide for us, and work has been slow.

I just know that the promptings that I had were real.

This is all apart of Heavenly Fathers plan for us.

I have faith that everyting will be ok and that, somehow,

we will be able to handle whatever comes our way.